update on ITP

sent 2 emails for ITP on last sat. one to shooting gallery asia, the other to lumina studio. dunno if they'll reply TT_TT

confusion o_o

i think the school system is seriously weird... what if the company that we want for ITP wants the intern like, to come in and work on dec or jan, and we say 'oh, we want to work in your company', and they reply 'okay', and then the downer for them is when we say ' we can only start work in march' . o_o won't they reject us? i mean, come on! who'd wait for an intern for like 5 months when they can get people who can work for them right away? =_=


hmmm....die.

Reflections on Interview

i know i know! i should have put my portfolio together better and beforehand. i know better now. i definetely will put it together by the time i need to meet the employers (ohmagawd D:)
nothing much to say actually...i shouldn't be more nervous? need to 'sell' myself more? [body for sale~] 
actually i am still not sure of what i want to do...i feel like i can't breathe, but i'm supposed to. everyone can, why can't i? huh? Huh? HUH?? hmf. 

what i should do...: 
- put together my exsisting stuff into a folder
- design my resume
- re-design my name card (thank gosh that i didn't print alot)
- do more works, i guess... more on the illustrations and graphics








knowing myself, i probably would get like, the top 2 done. haha..

update on product assignment - entry 1

did research today at supermarkets. went to ion orchard and meidi-ya at liang court (which, btw, is the only outlet in the entire island). main problem is the (stupid) bowl that i have to find. because if i can't find the bowl, there won't be any use even if i do decide on the structural design. =_= and the bowl has to be BIG enough to put the noodle inside. D<
found one set bowl and plate/cap at muji, though they are of sets. as in, the bowl belongs to one set of cutlery, and the plate/cap belongs to another set, but i put them together and call it a set. :P
found another bowl w/ cover that was really ideal at meidi-ya. and its meant for instant noodles! BUT. since its an existing product, if i use it, the one i'm doing will become a 'me-2' product. which the teachers don't want to see. +_+ so i'm stuck. stuckstuckstuckSTUCK!
already half thinking of changing product. but know i'm not allowed to...TT_TT
have sort of an vague idea of what the surface designs are gonna be like, but still, you never know what might happen in the "friggn'" end. 


will need to go find more on the damned bowl and cap. planning to go daiso...since its really big there... sigh..

DCMD Journey (cont.) + Seoul trip reflection

It’s not going too good? Not trying to moan and groan (hinthint), really.

A reason for this might be because I avoid completing my work, or even starting. Because I dislike my work and don’t think it’s ever good enough, and by not finishing it, I won’t have to look at the results and go through the self-disgust again. It’s true, I don’t like my work. I hate having to be rushed, and I want my work to turn out the way I want it exactly. Perfectionist? Perhaps. Not too sure now, cause I have other matters that make me think that I’m not one. i'm naturally a slow worker, i think. i think alot before i do, which is another point for me to change if i want to get my work done. i'm grateful for the teachers for pushing us and setting deadlines, cos if they didn't don't think i'd be able to pass...  i heard that teachers don't give a damn once we get to jcs and polys, but really glad that isn't true to an extent.
IMHO, I haven’t done a lot of new works. Hoping that by using competitions that have pre-fixed themes, might get some new works done. But looking at the amount of work that is coming up, not much hope left =_=

At the Seoul design Olympiad, saw lots of kinds of people. They have all kinds of arts, and there is a strong support for the arts, very obvious. Pls la, they even have a ‘village’ for those artists to live in.
They had ceramics as one of their main arts too. Rare, to see in Singapore. But seems quite common there. Also saw quite a few ceramics artists at the artists’ flea market at hong il uni. Lots of handsewn and handicraftish kind of people, but I think they were sort of experts or real artists in those professions. There were lots of hand-sewn bags made by people of the young-ish generation, and leather workers who dye and print on their leather and make stuff out of it, lots of metal workers (another rare thing in Singapore, unless you are a professional or in jewelry design and such stuff). All these people were like, a little older older than us, and the stuff they use is astounding. Like leather, metal, ceramics. Partly cause we don’t have such a foundation of interest here, and partly cause they are expensive (I mean, please, leather? Where to even buy? And metal? You need to melt them at some point, and metals have really really high melting points, if you can recall your chemistry...i think we have a ceramics school or class somewhere, but these people are going to do it for a living! Talk about vast differences…) there was also on-the-spot portrait caricriture artists.
[ these are in my perception, so I’m not accurate ]
Generally the colours they used were bright. Even if they were dark, they were solid and strong, not pale. They reminded me of a swirl of colours, fast moving, precise and intricate. Kinda messy, but dunno how to describe it better. Maybe that was more of what I felt about moving around so fast. Haha. even their graffitti was nice! there seems to be alot of NANA fans at the flea market there...there wasn't enough space to graffitti, they even painted inside the toilet. talk about visual huh. you'd think they don't have enough paper to draw on.

In Singapore, I don’t think there’s such as a thing as a artist’s flea market. Even if there was, I don’t know about it.


btw, it maay take some time for me to get to the yntuc brochure...can't quuuite recall the stuff about the comms model..hmmm. still, i guess i'll just post what i have and update once *cross-fingers* i have the time?





 New quote? “nothing ventured, nothing gained”

Reflection on Marketing Assignment

i think it was good that i worked with kat... by myself, i don't push myself enough, cause i already know what i will do and what would happen. with kat, there's that pressure to show that i'm trustworthy, capable of coping and catching up to her pace, which b.t.w, was kinda fast. it's was with the same with delia in film... like to apologise for any kind of inconveniece that i caused them and thank you for being patient and being my team mate :) ....okay, kinda out of topic? haha
i think we did pretty okay, the best we could. though i do feel that i should have done more...
storyboards will come in sometime later..ehe..since i'm still looking for it. i have all my stuff, but i can't find the folder..-_-
i admit, i was kinda pushy? at times, especially when we were deciding the thing to do on. i'm really sorry to her...TT_TT



again, i'm waffling through, so bear with me? haha...

Assignment 1B – Brand tracking reflection & Personal Branding Final Reflection

Reflections (the song from mulan cues in...:D)
for brand tracking, i feel that i did reasonably well, though i could have summarised more, i think. something i'm not sure if i added, i realised that starbucks has free advertising! you know, when people wear those shirts with the starbucks logo on it? though it isn't an official shirt, it still helps for advertising! there so many aspects to consider when opening a company, and i find it really troublesome. i guess that's why there are people who do that for a living. cause others don't want to do it. i could have watched out more for the adverts though. to be honest, i don't really listen to the radio. but i do hear it sometimes!

for the personal branding final, i feel very unhappy with it. because i did not make enough time to do what i wanted to do, which happens alot it seems. feel that i could have made a better namecard/portfolio/intro, for the final product. could have analyzed more. also feel that i'm not very trustworthy, because i keep making empty promises. i'm trying to correct that, as in make promises when i know i can keep it, and not make ones that i can't keep. i don't have alot of works to promote myself too...needs alot of re-work, my personal branding thing.

(since i can't really remember, i gonna fudge through it... :P)

NOT RELATED: a random note? trying to convince myself...

To the Future Me:
to remind yourself that what really happened:
actually, its really my/your fault. i/you had 2 choices, and i/you chose to take the make-your-own, which ended taking up 4 days (not including the nights i/you stayed up)
please note that i am/you are not blaming anyone but yourself. if i/you had though and firmed up much earlier i/you wouldn't have this problem. again.
DO not blame anyone. its my/your problem, not anyone else's. others have more to do than me/you, so cannot complain. absolutely. i/you have so much lesser compared to everyone else, and i am/you are doing is the same thing as everyone else. who are you/am i to complain?!! huh?!!!! so watch what you say...yes, you/i want to do quality work everytime i/you do an assig, but understand that time restraint means quality restraint. so, no qualms anout it, ok?
[and i still dunno how to reply! arghh!! D: so...bad? i mean, to leaving ppl de good intentions hanging...and i'm scared to go, cause, what if everything have to change? doing that twice is enough already..i don't knnow if i have any more time...both physically and doing wise. i can feel myself changing, literally. i'm lost, but i don't know what to do. right now, its fight to live another day. reminds me of The Patriot, starring Mel Gibson..(i know, totally random :D)
plus, i don't know if can finish what is needed to bring for consultation in time...phobia of teachers D: is there a proper scientific name for it? like acarophoia(fear of insects) and agliophobia(fear of pain) and necrophobia(fear of the dead and dead things) and claustrophobia(fear of enclosed spaces)]

NOTE ON HOW TO IMPROVE SELF(though it may still end up the same, still.):
- imperative that firmed up idea, concept, and theme/style is done in 1-1.5 weeks.
- imperative that planning is done within a day
- imperative that pre-execution (like making the damned doll) is done within 2 days. if not possible, do the back up option. please.


this may be used for future reference for reports, for the reflection part. hahaha.

notes to self: over-working/tiring will cause nausea and strong feelings of wanting to vomit. caution in spending nights up with coffee. watch it. you're/i'm not young anymore...D: it appears that this is a syndrom that only new mothers get, cos they are taking care of the baby. =_=...

supposedely first blog post - My DCMD journey

trying to catch up on all the thingies that i owe dt2...hahahaha! :D

So far my DCMD journey...
Lost. completely utterly lost. actually, at the middle of second sem in yr one, i was already thinking if i had made the right choice of coming into a design course. i mean, yeah, it was something i liked, but at that point of time i hadn't questioned myself if it was something i could, would, will do with burning fiery passion for a longlong time. knowing myself, i haven't really followed somthing "till the end of time" kind of way, which was bad. it meant that i had no commitment, which was dangerous, in the way that it would hinder me when i was doing my work. eventually i would become drained and shriveled..harhar.
right now, its more of commitment that's sort of blocking me from going forward? more like i can't really develop my style. i DON'T have a style, CAN'T develop one at this point of time. i really want to, but, there's like something blocking me and i can't move forward, even though i'm trying...i think? i'm getting tired more and more easily and i can't jump back in with the enthusiasm that i had.
feel really useless...perhaps the lack of enthu and commitment that makes me get distracted easily?unable do my assigs properly? have a proper style i stick to? i don't know...trying to..but failing.
problem is i need time, but i seem to waste away the time. TT_TT
really gonna have to concentrate, but have short attention span..buee

"the higher you reach, at least when you fall, you hit the trees"
"the higher you reach, the harder you fall"
which one is right?

unofficial 1ST post - myself

the title says it all... this BLOG is DEDICATED to my DT2 life. sad ain't it? a blog for a class.. just to remind myself what do do on this blog: >to be filled in later, since *ahem* mr lau will send the info later to us.<
this is sort of an update on my life..a decree from our lovely teacher :D ha-ha

so far, i have been thorugh 5 schools, SP included. i have been overseas for long periods; i have been asked if i'm from china; i have been told that i'm a son; i have been told that i look like i just came out of Africa, i swear(no offence there, its just a description); i have been the ''poor thing that is outcasted by her peers'' for 3 years; i have been(and still am..ahh~minho bummie! :D) a rabid fangirl and fujoshi[female otaku]. but i'm still thankful that i'm here and around and have a normal life, and not in Africa or in some other worse situation...*prays for them*
but i'm not thankful for the hmk D:

*UPDATE*
i won't be doing the hmk just yet..will try to do during the wkend. though i'm not sue how far i'll get.. problem is i always get distracted..by my favorite stuffs - books. sigh..no one to blame but myself. bleh.